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Raqeeb رقیب



It has been years
But even now, when you
Think i am not looking
You stare at me
Hating my very being
--
I can feel your eyes
boring into my back
wishing that I was dead
wondering why I am there
Wishing for him to be here
--
I carry someone else’s guilt
Even after all this time
He haunts my dreams
I see you smiling, holding his hand
And Leaving me all alone
-
Every night, I can see you
When you think I am asleep
Holding back the desire
To smother me in my sleep
And let the demons die
-
I never asked for this
But how was I supposed
To know, that you would
Go and discover love
That was not me
--
Please don’t blame me
I never knew,  
who he was
I never understood
Why he was
--
For me nothing
Existed, nothing
but you




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